Hold On

This pain is too much. I feel like I can't go on.
I look at you and smile but your distance kills me.
Guilt trip? I don't think so. That's not my intention.
When I don't understand why you jerk me in all directions, that's not me putting guilt on you.
That's me wondering why you tell me several different things at different times.
You love me? You don't?
Why is it that when you look at me you want to touch me but you say you don't want me? I don't understand.
We were born for each other. Isn't that what you said?
Don't leave me. Life is so cold and scary without you.
I made you a king. Remember?
You are my king and I'd die for you.
Tell me anything just don't let me go.
Am I pathetic? Maybe but I'm not ashamed.
I love you. I adore you.
I've tried looking elsewhere but men don't excite me. They scare me.
Not you. You make me feel safe.
Don't leave me. Hold me.
We still have so much passion for each other.
Don't say you don't feel it. I know better.
Don't throw me away. Hold me.
I'll do anything you ask if you just keep me.
You're safe. You won't destroy me like others will.
I'm sorry for everything. Please stay. Don't go.
Don't push me away. Hold me.
You said I was your queen. You came to be with me. Please be with me.
We mean so much to each other, don't we?
This feeling I have inside when you're not with me is torture.
Please stay. Don't go. Hold on. 

Lost

I just don't understand me anymore.
I used to be so strong and so calm, now I'm a bundle of nerves.
Why can't I shake you? What did you do to me? I miss me.
I used to be okay. Nothing could get to me.
Did you mean to be my everything?
Did you want me to need you so?
Did it make you feel good to know I would always be there?
Now you want me gone. What did you do?
I know your heart. I know you're good but what did you do?
Do you have magic in you?
You can tear down a person's resolve so easily.
Do you not know your power? It's strong.
I used to be strong but those walls, you desolved them. How?
I'm a husk. I'm nowhere near the woman I was.
God help me. Please help me.
I've lost myself. I miss me. Come back.